almost 1 year

alan is 11 months old now.  he's lost a bit of weight recently.  can't say i'm not worried.

what would you do?

a big "thank you" to people who left comments on my last post.  i was very depressed when i wrote it.  not because of what the in-law said, but because my husband didn't understand me - not only didn't he say anything to make me feel better after the event, he cold-wared me because according to him, i shouldn't talk back when his mother was yelling at me and calling me names (rat, whore etc...)

i'm curious though, what would you do when your in-law yell at you and call you names?  and when she's doing it non-stop, keeps on going on and on when you try to stay calm.

what the hell

Brandy said she could not imagine how hard it was being knee deep in a culture that does have many people doing what I do.  She was wrong.  I wasn't "knee-deep".  This culture that considers stay-at-home moms worthless is all the way up to my eye brows.  I feel I may die any time.  But then, I have to survive, I have to live on.  My baby is so small.

My so-called "mother-in-law" labelled me a rat today.  Because I do not work, I do not earn an income.  According to her, all I do is sleep and eat - eating through her son's hard-earned money.  She said I was worthless, useless and all I ever contributed was birthed a son, which any women could do anyway.  She said that had I not met his son, who knew what "thing" I'd become.  She said I wasn't any good to his son.

thank god day

on the 26th december 2010, (the west's boxing day, although we didn't celebrate here in china, and we didn't have any presents to unwrap), we went to the huangdaxian temple to thank the gods for their blessing in year 2010.  it's bryan's family tradition.  his mom does it every year.  since we were in china this year, we went along, too.

this is me on the steps leading to the main building.

and here's alan and his mom in front of the main building.

can you see the big incense burners behind alan in the far background?

bryan and his younger sister, praying.

i'm not sure what these red stripes are for.  good luck, most likely.

okay, that's it for the day.